the hurt and the Healer

The breakfast of champions. One of the many reasons why Saturday mornings are so beautiful. ;)

Last week was really rough. I spent a lot of time in prayer, expressing my absolute dependence on God. Although this season isn't fun, I can see how it is good for me in several ways. It's like the MercyMe song...this is where the hurt and the Healer collide. I deeply desire to rest in complete trust in God and allow Him to work in my life, but how often I fall short! Here are some phrases and quotes that kept running through my mind and heart last week.

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us." ~Helen Keller

"You're gonna have all of me, cause You are worth every falling tear, You are worth facing any fear." ~Matt Hammitt

"Keep on dreaming even if it breaks your heart." ~Eli Young Band

counting the smiles

There were several things that made me smile last week. I decided to document each of them for your viewing/reading pleasure. (Actually it's for me really...to remind me that God is good!) Cheers to the little things in life!

Monday: my coworker needed me to do something for him (which is not unusual) so he added these words to the bottom of his note (which is unusual).

I also got a new calculator!!! The other one was so old and wouldn't print very well anymore. I was quite elated with this new one. It's amazing what something new can do for a girl.

Tuesday: I passed Statistics!!! Did you catch that?? I. Passed. Statistics. Against all odds (pun intended). Thank you very much. Here is the announcement that I sent to my family:

"So I took another assessment in statistics hoping I could get the score needed for the credit. The probability of passing wasn't very good. The standard deviation of my progress scores compared to my assessment scores is 3.33%. I figured this would put me 1% behind the score for credit with a 90% confidence of this occurring. Unfortunately, I ended up scoring 2% above the score required for credit, thereby earning three hours of credit for statistics. The problem is I fear I don't deserve it because my calculations were off. I am a hopeless case."

My sister's reply? "Just accept it."

So I did. What else is a girl supposed to do?

Wednesday: These kids make me smile every week. I love them!!

Chloe said she had to make a wish before she blew the dandelion seeds. This 4-year old girl is full of joy and has the cutest lisp.

Annelise will be going to Sparks next year, and I will miss her so much! She is a bright, little girl that is diligent about hiding God's Word in her heart. I know she will fit right in with the big kids.

Madison is another one that will be leaving us for Sparks. How I will miss her cute-ness. Don't let her sweet smile trick you, she gets very serious about game time! Kinda reminds me of someone else I know really well...

Oh David. This little boy is very shy and came to Cubbies for several weeks before I finally got a smile out of him. Since then he has started coming out of his shell and was more chatty last week than he has ever been before!

Not pictured: Isaac, Aaron, Cord, Lanny, Brandt, Aiden, Dalton, Gavin, Ethan, Riley, Emilie, or Ciana. All of these kids bring me joy and laughter.

Friday: I got to take some time off work since I was all caught up on things at the office. I worked at catching up on my own things at home and made quite a bit of progress!

Now for another week...

a miracle

The last thing you want to see is a semi-truck headed straight for you. Unfortunately, that's what I saw last night when I came around a curve on a two-lane stretch of highway out in the country. The truck was in my lane passing another vehicle (in a no-passing zone), and the speed limit was 65 but who knows how fast his rig was going. I hit the brakes and headed for the shoulder, trying not to come into contact with the guard rails. I got over just in time. The truck barreled by within inches of me, like a speeding freight train. As far as I can tell, he never touched his brakes. What was he thinking??

I was grateful for the shoulder; most highways out here don't have them. I was also grateful for good brakes (65 to 15 in, like, 4 seconds) and a car that is responsive and handles well (I love being able to feel the road). I was grateful for another chance at life. I once again came close to death, but God still has plans for me. He is not finished with me yet! Every day is a miracle, people. I hope you realize that.

Dear Truck Driver,
I would like to very respectfully point out that you took my life into your hands last night. You would have survived the wreckage because you were driving the bigger object. My mustang and I would have perished, leaving you with a lifetime of regret and my family with a hole in their lives. It also would have been a multiple-car pile-up because there were several vehicles behind you. That situation scared me more than you will ever know. I would have liked to tell you a thing or two, but I will never have that chance. So I will pray for you instead. Go and scare no more.
Sincerely,
Lauren

Boston, summarized

Well apparently my schedule is not going to allow me the luxury of chronicling my Boston trip in detail. I shall have to resign myself to a summary. I decided that if I can't find time to go to the grocery store to buy food, or clean my house, or keep up with my checkbook and budget, I have no business blogging. ;( It has been three weeks since I got back and it already seems like ages. My little world is spinning faster than I can keep up with. I am getting quite dizzy...

But on to the Boston summary...

We did service projects with Hope Fellowship during our stay. Here are some of the things we did:

~Handed out granola bars with cards at Boston subways stops (called "T-stops" by the locals) to spread the word about the church and invite people to come
~Helped with their English Speaking Class
~Assisted with construction of a new office for the associate pastor
~Prepared a meal with the homeless ministry
~Served the meal to the homeless in Harvard Square
~Put door hangers on houses in the neighborhoods around the church to invite people to come on Easter sunday
~Stuffed plastic eggs for the Easter Egg Hunt

Hope also sent us out to three other church plants in the Boston area. They are not at all in competition but instead are partnering with each other to reach their city. Mosaic Boston (which is a brand new plant; they started meeting in November and are using the YMCA facilities), City on a Hill, and Redemption Hill. We handed out granola bars, packs of gum, and flyers for these churches as well. They are very active in reaching out to their neighborhoods. Only 2.5% of Boston is evangelical Christian; it is the most un-churched city in America. It was amazing to see what God is doing through these people who have surrendered everything to Him.

My favorite day was Wednesday (even though we had to get up earlier than usual and I am sooo not a morning person). In the midst of our activities, we got to hear two pastors share their stories. They talked about church planting and everything that is involved in that process. I was fascinated by all this new information and was encouraged by their unwavering faith in God.

It was not an easy trip because the days were long and busy. We walked all over Boston and sometimes left the church early in the morning and didn't get back until late at night. I only got 4 or 5 hours of sleep each night. I was ready for a real bed and shower, but I didn't want to come back to my world.

I am so grateful that I had the chance to go, and I would do it all over again.